Syd, Ive always loved you from the bottom of my heart, since the minute I saw your eyes open.
Second Chances: 'I survived jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge' I am sure your mum will be watching over you, so sad that she caused you so much pain, please seek help, you are precious, with love xxx. In 2013, 118 potential jumpers were talked down from their attempts and did not jump. I was so worried about him, but he refused to get help and he kept drinking. Car plunges off California elevated highway, 3 people killed. We remain hopeful that someone knows something that will be helpful in finding her.. and our The family of a Sydney West, a 19-year-old Pleasanton native and former Foothill High School student, is again asking the public for any information about their daughters whereabouts leading up to her disappearance last month in San Francisco. There are some reports that Sydney may have suffered from depression. (felt good to be honest for once). Reach out to someone, anyone because I can tell you they have no idea how you feel. Aside from seeing a therapist, I didnt find anything out there to help. Im all right, Im prepared for this! Dusty Rhodes yelled as he launched himself from the Golden Gate Bridge. Interviews with jump survivors and potential jumpers . Parenthood does not protect everyone, though. Photos purchased from Fotolia.com. I would bet that most, if not all, had narcissistic mothers. It is always wonderful to hear from someone who made it out to the other side. Holidays and milestones come and go while we continue to feelSydney's absence continuously. He and his wife lived in Tracy and had an adorable . I understand completely. I warned her of the possible dangers of the physical response to discontinuance, not thinking of her emotional well being. Obviously, I failed. I hope he is seeing a psychiatrist for his medications, not a PCP, because psychiatrists are much more well versed in the benefits, risks, side effects, etc. Its great to hear that things are going well for you now. Someone may have seen something -- any piece of information could help lead us to Sydney," parents Kimberly and Jay West said in a joint statement. Im sorry youre feeling so bad that your suicide seems, to you, to be inevitable. Thats simply not true, but it took stepping outside my beliefs, becoming teachable and following the leads of others to find a life worth living. She is 5 10 tall and weighs 130 pounds. SF]. It was a serious, intentional attempt to end my own life. I know how hard it is. Im about to be 22, medicated trying to live normal with constant suicidal thoughts. Kevin Briggs. That is so sad, Julie. Which will turn into the vicious cycle of no job= no money, and no money = no job. I dont understand why things are suddenly going so well for me though.. Youd think karma would hit me and make my life way worse but I guess the universe wants me alive for some reason? I also knew that there was no hope whatsoever for what was wrong with me. Construction of the Golden Gate Bridge suicide net, a coarse web of steel designed to catch and cradle people who jump, is two years behind . Wishing you peace, I am both, not realizing this until reading today My dad ended his life by his own hands , when I was 9. I wonder if you might benefit from talking with like-minded folks at ChronicSuicideSupport.com. Therapists and doctors may help provide relief. This case has always stuck with me because I am in my 20s and suffer from anxiety and depression. I had my suicidal thoughts since I was a child I lost my mum when I was 9 years old she took her own life and even now after my attempt I still dont know how to feel about what happened to her and what I have done to my self but I know I will have to find a way to live with the impact of my attempt and hopefully find a way to some sort of happiness, Please seek help, therapy to work through your trauma, it must be so hard to have lost your mum in this way and your nine year old self could only feel abandoned, not enough to have stopped her. Sometimes, life just sucks and the pain of living is unbearable. Enter your email address to receive notifications by email of new posts. I am resigned to staying alive until I die in some other way. Cookie Notice Both my son and I said we woud never consider it again, after that. True or false is a perception that changes from person to person. :A Follow-up Study of Suicide Attempters fromthe Golden Gate Bridge.. America doesnt feed narcissistic people and men are more materialistic. She tried to take her life when I was 12. My failure as a person was responsible for my extreme step. Not having the courage to fulfill my plan, I checked into treatment centers and each time I checked out I sank into suicidal depression again. Reports said West would often visit the bridge for runs, walks, and to take pictures. What, Im supposed to carry on with the HOPE that things MIGHT get better. Once her gap year was over, she moved back to California decided to attend U.C. I am a 60+ year old woman with four grown kids and six grandkids and when the darkness set in I could no longer see the effect this would have had on their lives. Edit: FAQs https://findsydneywest.com/faq, https://www.pollyklaas.org/missing-children/sydney-west/, https://pleasantonweekly.com/news/2021/09/30/what-a-week-find-sydney-west, https://www.kron4.com/news/bay-area/searching-for-sydney-san-francisco-police-still-asking-for-publics-help/?fbclid=IwAR2uVE3anCjr5EvpUerTiD6JZxCAENR83-xIRz3TRzAfRuGckyYFzRqnobM, https://storiesoftheunsolved.com/2020/11/27/the-disappearance-of-sydney-west/. An estimated 1,600 people have committed suicide by jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge, which has warnings but no barrier. "This will be the biggest jump of my life," he told her.
Key to teen's disappearance is on Golden Gate Bridge - Audacy Many self harm injuries, stitches. By rejecting non-essential cookies, Reddit may still use certain cookies to ensure the proper functionality of our platform. I said, Well, the night we met I got so drunk I passed out on the living room floor. Trackback URL It is true that. Rhodes was estranged from his wife Lorraine, who lived in the East Bay in Port Chicago with their two kids, Rocky, 4, and Oowala, 9, but he made arrangements for her to witness the stunt, maybe in the hope that the feat would win her back. Thanks again. KCBS IS A REGISTERED TRADEMARK OF CBS BROADCASTING INC. ALL RIGHTS RESERVED. It was in 1984. Woke up yesterday and realized I needed to make another pilgrimage before the series begins.
Get your suicides here, folks | Movies | The Guardian Theres just a lack of evidence that shes not with us anyone, Jay West said. Be blunt and honest dont sugar coat how you feel. Taking into account suicides that might have been missed by researchers, Dr. Seiden stated that 90% of people who tried to jump off the Golden Gate Bridge did not go on to die by suicide. I wish everyone could receive this gift, and I am grateful that you and others have done so! I hope that he is able to get effective help, both psychologically and pharmaceutically. For example, upon hearing me take total responsibility for the failure of my first marriage a gifted woman who is a counselor and pastor said, I typically find that both parties share responsibility equally. Theres another post that might be helpful to you, too: You Cant Do Everything: Limitations in Helping a Suicidal Person. Hines, who suffers from bipolar disorder, survived a jump from San Francisco's Golden Gate Bridge in 2000. He published the results in an article titled Where Are They Now? She struggled with being so far away from her parents and sister, who reside in North Carolina. [This comment was edited to abide by the Comments Policy. Also Live Through This website has beautiful portraits (photographic but also in prose) of people who survived a suicide attempt. I fully expected to talk to her the next day, Jay West told KRON4. Wests parents led a socially-distanced vigil in Pleasanton last Thursday. If prior research is any indication, the barrier will save lives, even when taking into account people who go elsewhere to die by suicide. Reddit and its partners use cookies and similar technologies to provide you with a better experience. ChiMaxx, thank you for writing and for raising important points in your comment. We dont like living in pain, and we look for ways of ending that pain and, being creatures of habit, we do it in old familiar ways because thats what we know. I just got out two days ago. I just read your post. Suicide prevention can save lives. And for most of those whose lives were saved, life goes on for many more years to come. There is only a 4ft safety rail separating the sidewalk from the void, and 98% of suicide attempts there have succeeded. Here I thought I just occasionally drank too much. The most intuitive reason is that suicidal crises are, by their nature, temporary. Keep pushing on. Precious few people survive such a fall; the water about 200 feet below acts the same as concrete when a person lands on it at high speed. God Bless You. I died that day too. West was last seen on the Golden Gate Bridge onSept. 30, 2020 just before 7 a.m., according to the San Francisco Police Department. In fact, Dusty told his friend to shoot from the bridge as it would be more dramatic, and besides, he would easily be able to swim to shore to a congratulatory, awestruck crowd of beach goers. Challenges, extreme challenges. Her parents thanked others for the love and support, and asked people to continue spreading the word by sharing photos and memories of their daughter on social media. He grew up in the Los Angeles area, went to UC Berkeley and has previously worked as a news reporter at USA Today and SFGATE and as a music writer at NPR. Ive been hospitalized 4 times in the past 6 weeks, after my 9th suicide attempt. I know you mean well, but I always feel I wished I never survived. West is 5'10" and slender at 130 pounds, with blue eyes and light brown hair. West, 19, disappeared on a foggy San Francisco morning, around 6:45 a.m. to 7 a.m. Wednesday, Sept. 30 on the Golden Gate Bridge. I am suicidal have been for the past week. Or, at least, balanced! He managed to turn himself upright in the few seconds it took for him to hit the water; this way, he did not land on his head. Comments RSS Feed, My name is Denis and I live in England I am still recovering at the moment on 22nd of April 2020 I attempted to end my life I jumped off a 5 story carpark and survived I broke my left leg in 3 places and my right ankle in 6 places and my back in 2 places but I am lucky because I am recovering well and I can walk .people say its a mircle but I feel gulty because no one knew about the thoughts I was having for years because I did not tell any one to the outside world I was the life and soul of the party .I feel ashamed that now every one is worried about me and that is not what I wanted. There are so many types of antidepressants these days (around 40), plus mood stabilizers, plus antipsychotic medications that can also be used to treat depression. She talked to herfather on the phone the day before shewent missing. Sydney West never returned home, and has not been heard from since. The articles abstract states: Following the interventions, there was an 86% reduction in jumping suicides per year at the sites in question (95% CI 79% to 91%). I supported her desire to stop taking her medication. West's parents are asking anyone who may have been. She was, for a period of time, carrying a black backpack that she frequently used to get around town. They lied about every imaginable factor of surviving in life. Your Privacy Choices (Opt Out of Sale/Targeted Ads). Copyright 2023 Nexstar Media Inc. All rights reserved. My husband killed himself 6 weeks ago at home to put a closure on our marital problem. The persons reasons for dying may begin to fade. If you want to talk with someone immediately by phone, text, or chat, please check out the Resources page. Sydney Harbour Bridge has a suicide prevention barrier. Theres people who love you and want you to keep pushing even if your soul reason is living to not put them through that heartache. I pray tonight. Some die instantly from internal injuries, while others . Its a really simple concept. Email: Andrew.Chamings@sfgate.com | Twitter: @AndrewChamings. The Golden Gate net project is like putting a bandaid on an ulcer. It gives me a good opportunity to dispel concerns that others may have, too. I know someone who hanged themself 18 months ago after a buildup of personal problems and much alcohol that night, but rescue services were called and saved him. I meant it, and I almost succeeded. Sydney West was last seen near the Golden Gate Bridge in the early morning hours of Sept. 30, walking near Crissy Field. This is perhaps the best argument for preventing suicide. Public File for KBCW-TV / KBCW 44 Cable 12. My advice to you or to those considering suicide or attempted suicide, please THINK of your loved one, your family and friends. Notify me of follow-up comments by email.
Suicides at the Golden Gate Bridge - Wikipedia The footage taken by Guzman didn't make the news, but was watched by a small, select group: the San Francisco coroners jury, which quickly ruled a case of accidental death from drowning a week later. As 6 months passes where we have not seen or heard fromSydney, it becomes increasingly painful, her parents, Jay and Kimberly West, said in a statement provided to SFGATE. Even for people who passionately wish and perhaps even need (for health reasons) to lose weight, they do not always prevail. They have a good, nonjudgmental, and supportive discussions at ChronicSuicideSupport.com/forum/. SFGATE news editor Amy Graff contributed to this report. The Golden Gate Bridge came to be recognized as a symbol of the power and progress of the United States, and it set a precedent for suspension-bridge design around the world. West, 20, grew up in Pleasanton, Calif. She was a star volleyball player at Foothill High School and loved singing at open mic nights. Im afraid to try again and it just adds for anger, desperation, loss of control over my own life and guilt for those in my life who have to worry. Get browser notifications for breaking news, live events, and exclusive reporting. West was born in Walnut Creek and lived briefly in Castro Valley before her family moved to Pleasanton.
Now I wonder whether I also pressed reset on my brain. On average, 30 people or more die from suicide here each year. Has he tried cognitive behavior therapy?
$10K Reward Offered In Search For UC Berkeley Freshman Sydney West He already had refused to get help or to stop drinking. This research, though 35 years old, still holds true. Precious few people survive such a fall; the water about 200 feet below acts the same as concrete when a person lands on it at high speed. I think this message needs to be made more clear and put in ads, etc. If you enjoyed this article, subscribe now to receive more just like it. Dear Anthony, [feb.6.2019 @9.26am]. The West family has also upped its reward for her return to $25,000. Michael Horan at 415-553-1028 or the family's private investigator at 925-705-8328. Of the 515 people whose attempt was interrupted, only 35 later died by suicide in the years to come. Same with divorce. All theses years following, I did not feel good about myself, am reunited with my nephew, reading up on how to talk to him. "We have a lot of people that are asking us for information.". Search within r/redsox. It would be logical to assume that being prevented from jumping merely delayed their death.
Kevin Hines Jumped Off The Golden Gate Bridge - YouTube I woke up on my own after my first attempt. Another possibility is that the instinct to live kicks in once someone comes close to dying. The man who tried to find fame by jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge, Horoscope for Saturday, 3/04/23 by Christopher Renstrom, Snowboarder dies at Tahoe ski resort following historic blizzard, West I-80 closed near Tahoe due to snow and 'multiple spinouts', Wife of Jeffrey Vandergrift issues somber update, Even Salesforces tower HQ isnt safe from office cuts, Inside Harry and Meghans favorite In-N-Out, Horoscope for Friday, 3/03/23 by Christopher Renstrom, Massive Lake Tahoe waterfront compound slashes price by $20M, This beloved East Bay hybrid cafe and bike shop is closing, Ja Morant says he'll get help after video shows apparent gun. I love to see that in the Comments section; I find it beautiful when people can connect in this way and, even more, when someone can tell another person what they havent believed for themselves. Thanks again for your thoughtful comment. Anyone with information is asked to contact private investigator Scott Dudek at (925) 705-8328 or Dudek.associates@gmail.com. She was also seen wearing black shorts at times and may have been wearing glasses, said her father, Jay West. I am sure your little self felt am I not lovable enough but it was never about you, your mum was in pain and obviously thought you would be better off without her, but it is not a reflection on you, hard to accept as children are programmed to feel the centre of the world. There were probably signs that you had a drinking problem from the very beginning. It was a startling revelation. It's not hard to kill yourself at the Golden Gate bridge. When I will be talking to him, also sure helps me to see I am suicide attempt survivor. But overall, the evidence is that prevention is not simply a temporary delay of death. I think it could be helpful to you.
The Bridge (2006 documentary film) - Wikipedia Has left me pretty much bankrupt and not willing to live. Ive worked in Mental health, Ive lost a family member through suicide. As a person who has tried countless times to end my life, even shooting myself in the head, we are stuck living with yet another feeling of failure when we fail and continue suffering. At the time, a made for TV movie, named Silence of the Heart came out. Youve been through an enormous amount. These findings are consistent with other studies that have looked at method substitution, which can occur when one suicide method is made unavailable and people substitute it with another. / CBS San Francisco. All rights reserved. The San Francisco Police Department's tip line can be reached at 415-575-4444. Your comments are false. People are stupid. Dusty thought he could do the same but let everyone see it, and so employed the services of his pal, Hollywood cameraman Jose Guzman, to capture the jump on film. Background: Sydney West was born on July 11, 2001.
I've taken the Fenway Park Tour 3 times in my life. Each year I did I cant tell you how much of what you write touches me in some way.
The man who tried to find fame by jumping off the Golden Gate Bridge When I woke up a day later, my depression had greatly improved. It certainly sounds like your friends antidepressants are not working. Also, on the Resources page, I list a number of websites and other resources for people who have lost someone to suicide. I wanted to distance myself from it as much as I could so that people would leave me alone. Upon its completion in 1937, it was the tallest and longest suspension bridge in the world. West's parents are asking anyone who may have been commuting or exercising on the bridge to come forward with anything they may have seen. She was at Crissy Field, near the bridge. A vigil was held last week for West in Pleasanton. By accepting all cookies, you agree to our use of cookies to deliver and maintain our services and site, improve the quality of Reddit, personalize Reddit content and advertising, and measure the effectiveness of advertising. Children are a major reason for living for many people who battle suicidal thoughts. And I got very drunk every time I drank after that, which was quite often. She replied, She probably figured she could fix you. This was the beginning of my recognition of the fact that I wasnt the horrible person I made myself out to be, in fact, my story is very much like a lot of alcoholics Ive met. It happens. Overall, a meta-analysis of numerous studies that looked at bridges suicide barriers found them to be effective. It is also possible she was wearing eyeglasses instead of contact lenses. We will never recover from it. SF]. .
A Lesson from 29 Golden Gate Suicide Attempts - Medium "I just want to reach out to all the folks that have been supporting us over the past almost month now, communicate that the support and the love that we get is just absolutely amazing," Wests dad, Jay West, said in the clip. Saving Lives at the Golden Gate Bridge.
Suicide Deterrent Net | Golden Gate For those who are thinking about suicide, I know what happens after youre gone isnt part of the thought process, but believe me, you might end your pain, but the trajectory of pain caused to others is also insurmountable. It may help,, Kind Regards, We talked a lot about loving each other. I feel stuck between a rock and a hard place. I guess I have started to realize its not my faultits no ones fault when a loved one commits suicide. San Francisco police and the Orange County Sheriffs Office in North Carolina did not immediately respond to a request for comment from SFGATE. Fire crews respond to car that crashed into tree, Suspect at large after robbery at Verizon store, Montgomery High School to resume classes Monday, Workday sued on suspicion of discriminatory hiring, Ja Morant investigated by NBA over Instagram post, Draymond Green spent his first NBA check here, 2 Montana SB jerseys sold at record-breaking prices, Get rid of Black History Month, Draymond Green says, Purdy elbow surgery could happen next week, Jake Paul takes first boxing defeat by split decision, Find Sydney West: Family of missing woman extends $25K reward, Life is truly fragile: Family of Philip Kreycik speaks after body found in Pleasanton, Find Sydney West: Search for missing teen continues, Find Sydney West: Hopeful friends, family gather in Pleasanton, Sydney West: Former teammates hope for Berkeley students safe return, Best athletic wear for kids joining baseball and, How to watch all the Oscar-nominated movies in style, Best smart home devices for older users, according, Felon found with ghost gun after San Jose family, Volunteer recognized for work at UCSF Benioff, Whats the oldest city in California? I am so glad my attempt did not end in my death. East Bay Wine & Whimsy (Metaphysical Market), Before & After Photos Show CA's Snowpack, Reservoirs After Storms, Best Bay Area Sandwiches + Stranded Hiker Rescued: Saturday Smiles, Sprawling Estates, Suburban Dreams: 11 Featured Bay Area Homes, Berkeley Police Warn Of Vehicle Theft Rise, The Poop On Free-Range Cats And Your Lawn And Garden [Block Talk]. Although severe depression led him to jump off the bridge, Kevin Hines has stated: The very second I let go, I knew I had made a big mistake.. At this point I feel like Ill just maim myself or end up locked up for a minimum of six months( yes thats happened to me). Golden Gate Bridge, suspension bridge spanning the Golden Gate in California to link San Francisco with Marin county to the north. Previously, police said she had not been seen or heard from since before dawn, on Sept. 29. I just hope that one day her family will get answers. When I arrived at the #FindSydneyWest vigil in Pleasanton, I said whoever is singing has a beautiful voice. A jump off the Golden Gate Bridge takes around four seconds, during which a person will reach a speed of 80 mph before smashing into the water's surface like concrete. Im sorry to hear of your loss West was in the Bay Area to take summer classes at UC Berkeley; she was supposed to enter school in the fall, but due to a concussion she sustained and classes being held remotely, she opted to defer for another year but stayed in California with family friends. Parents hope key to teen's disappearance is with passerby on Golden Gate Bridge, How one storm system wreaked havoc from coast to coast, Californians await key decisions from reparations task force, Bankman-Fried might use flip phone under stricter bail plan, Woman accused of killing ill husband released from jail, Alaska's arduous Iditarod kicks off with ceremonial start, was initially thought to have last been seen or heard from early the morning of September 30 in the Crissy Field area. What % of those people were financially ruined (ie dead broke) with no job or no home? A view of the Golden Gate Bridge with San Francisco behind it in January 1947. I was determined and had written a detailed letter with instructions for the police and family. Sydney is considered at risk due to depression, said SFPD Officer Robert Rueca to KRON4. "We know that there was a lot of pedestrian, car and bicycle traffic on the Golden Gate Bridge the morning Sydney disappeared.
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